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Ramblings by Year

well, still pretty good year

Now, I was going to write something long and deep and thought provoking but I ran out of time. I had a bunch of friends (read: 2) come over today that I haven’t seen since the wedding. And I wasn’t on the computer all day. So. I snagged this from Squonk. heh.

1. What did you do in 2005 that you’d never done before?
Married Shawn.

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don’t make any resolutions, but I did try to set a few “before I turn 30” goals. I didn’t really accomplish most of them. I did get married, and I have my learner’s permit (not my license, like I wanted) and one other one that didn’t happen.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes. My Uncle had a baby boy at the end of the summer. I now have my first first cousin and my grandparents have their third grandchild.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No. Thank goodness.

5. What countries did you visit?
This year I didn’t even leave my town.

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
A record deal. My driver’s licence.

7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
July 2, 2005 – got married.
June 30/July 1st – met Cindy-Lou & Carissa.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I am off all meds except ONE and that’s for my stomach.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not keeping up keeping fit.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Miraculously no! I can’t believe I made it through an entire year without seriously injuring me or ending up in the ER. Don’t laugh, I think this is a first!

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My iPod mini (before it broke and had to be replaced…)

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Apple for the super quick and efficient repair service and getting me a replacement product within a week; all those people over in scary places trying to make life better for innocent people.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
Most celebrities with their greed and infidelity; most people in politics.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Sadly, bills and rent. I’d say wedding costs, but that’s where most of our parents’ money went. heh.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Meeting Cindy-Lou and Carissa at our wedding; my wedding dress; my puppy.

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
Anna Nalick – 2AM (Breathe)

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
I. happier or sadder? happier
II. thinner or fatter? um..the same I think.
III. richer or poorer? crap, um, richer? poorer? I’d say the same.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Yoga & exercise.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Being bitter and impatient and cynical.

20. How did you spend Christmas?
I spent it in my jammies and picking up dog poop under my tree with the love of my life.

21. How will you you spend New Year’s?
I will be spending it in my jammies, watching dvds with my husband. Hopefully NOT picking up dog poop under the tree.

22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
All over again.

23. How many one-night stands?

24. What was your favourite TV program?
[honourable mention goes to America’s Next Top Model because I did watch it every week]

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Yes. [but mostly because I didn’t know them last year]

26. What was the best book you read?
How I Paid For College: a Novel of Sex, Theft, Friendship & Musical Theatre – by Marc Acito

The Tower of Ravens: book one of Rhiannon’s Ride – by Kate Forsyth

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Melissa McClelland – Stranded in Suburbia

28. What did you want and get?
A puppy.

29. What was your favorite CD of this year?
I don’t really know. Melissa McClelland? Anna Nalick?

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
I didn’t see many and I didn’t really love the ones I saw. I did like The Fantastic 4, and of course Harry Potter.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
On the exact date, I went to my parents’ for dinner. But FOR my birthday, I had a Birthday Bowling Extravaganza. I turned 29. That was in January.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
A record deal.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?

34. What kept you sane?
Chelsea. She’s been my godsend this year. Thank you. *grin*

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Gee, I have no idea. I’m not big on the celebs. Oh, wait! THE ROCK! *rrawr*

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Apparently there is going to be an election on my birthday in 2006. I only write this because it makes me cranky. Other than that? I know nothing of politics, mostly because I don’t care.

37. Whom do you miss?
This year I missed a lot of people from my past. I was sad that I had lost contact with them for various reasons. Cheryl Crozier – my best friend until third grade when her family moved to Mississauga; Scott Cooper (Sctoo!) & Tracy W & Karen Cleveland – from my early 20s and the Due South Days. I often wonder what these people are doing and how they are. I wish I could reconnect.

38. Who was the best new person that you met?
Chelsea. Although it was really the Fall of 2004 that we bonded as we broke the photocopier. She’s helped me learn how to have fun and just go with it.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
I don’t need everyone to like me. I know I am doing the best job I can and that’s what counts.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
no one can find the rewind button now
so cradle your head in your hands
and breathe…
just breathe…


I am freezing. FREEZING.
I am jittery (guess eating those coffee beans with my irish coffee at 9pm wasn’t such a good idea)
I am awake, yes really sleepy.
(shivering I am so cold, even)


that is all. 

csi: house

This has been by far the most lazy holiday ever. I have remained in my jamies almost all week, only getting dressed if I absolutely had to. heh. Today is one of those days, let me tell you, I have to. We’re off to the inlaws for Christmas number..er.. four? I’ve lost count. I am hoping for a blender and mixer, yo. As long as Shawn doesn’t use up all the hot water, I’ll be hopping in the shower in mere minutes and then we’re off to open gifts and eat turkey and oh yeah, see his parents.

Not only have we spent all this time lazing about in jammies we’ve watched ALL season 5 of csi and we’re about a quarter of the way through season one of House. Wow. Can I just say my dreams are messed up? Oh my goodness!! Forget nightmares about work..  now every little thing is making me paranoid. I’m itchy, my nose is sniffly, I have a headache, anything.. do you KNOW how much paranoia these two shows together can produce??? I could have a million and one diseases. It could be caused by a billion and one things going wrong around the house – mould! fleas! termites! whatever! ack! Ha!

I love how in House they have to almost kill the patient like, twice before they find the right thing. It’s really quite predictable you know. But I don’t think I’d go there.. they never really say "oops, wasn’t that. Really we were just making a wild guess". They should. One doctor’s name is Eric Foreman. He looks nothing like that guy in That 70s Show. Hmm….

Also? I’m back on my never going to Vegas kick. Too much death and creepiness there. I’ll stay on this side of the border, thank you very much.

I think Annie is allergic to the Christmas tree. She’s been so sick this past week, and it cant be from the heaters, because we haven’t really had them on. It was quite mild earlier this week. Since her respitory thing has gotten worse in the last 3 weeks, I am blaming the tree. It’s the only new thing. And I know that if she’s out in the grass much in the summer she gets the same way. Her nose is all blocked and makes this little whistling noise when she breathes and then she does this thing called a reversed sneeze, which really just sounds like she’s gasping for air. It’s scary.. but after all this time with her, I’m a little used to it. Sometimes I don’t even get out of bed anymore at night. She’s fine and she gets through it fine. It really doesn’t bother her as much here as it did in my other place (you want csi to find scary stuff somewhere? send them to our old apartment next tot he factory that’s turning the ground toxic!) but she gets flareups here. I’m pretty sure it’s to vegetation. She didn’t have this when she lived in Tenneessee (I’ve doubled too many letters, haven’t I? :)) and only one other dog that came to Canada has this sort of problem and she’s in Manitoba. We haven’t figured out what causes it yet. Weird.

Anyhow, my point is I’ll be happy when the tree is down (this weekend, yo!) and Annie starts to feel better. I have also just renewed her allergy type pills with the vet today and we’ll pick them up en route to the inlaws.

So, that’s my day in a nutshell. I think I’m having a quiet New Years. I hope I am. I like this jammies thing. I should wash them though. I think I smell. heh. Laundry would be good anyhow or I’ll have nothing to go back to work (eep!) with on Tuesday.

Have a happy new year, all! Don’t forget as of midnight tomorrow night there will only be 23 shopping days left until MY BIRTHDAY. Get on that, will ya? 


me and my mummy We kind of look like a two-headed monster in this photo. ha! Happiest of birthdays to my best friend, my comfort, my mother. Although I know you’re currently partying it up on the west coast and you probably won’t see this until you get home next week – I wanted to wish you a happy day.

You have always been there for me and I am so lucky for that. I have never kept secrets from you, you were always the one I told everything too. You still are, only I might edit things a little now that I am older. haha. I don’t know how I would have gotten through elementary school or high school without you there at my back. Thank you.

I'm like my mother Everyone should be so lucky to have a mother like you. Thank you for being home while us kids were growing up. Although with the amount we fought, I’m surprised you didn’t go back earlier to get away from us. 🙂

I love you, mummy. Happy birthday!

bored, sleepless, bored.. ye gods!

I can’t believe I am so bored. I want to be home. But I just can’t stand being cooped up all day. Can’t go to the stores – INSANE with Boxing Day sales. Can’t really do much outside because – it’s FREEZING and icy (icey?) And we’re not really big on money right now, so there’s not much to do. We’ve been staying home al day in jamies and watching DVDs, which is fine. I am enjoying that. But every day is feeling like a Sunday to me. I keep feeling like I have to go to work the next day, and I feel all lazy and greecey and I have this haze-like headache around my eyes, like I have slept too much – or not enough.

I’m restless like hell, yo. I need a vacation. A real one. Where we can go away and do fun stuff and not have to stay at home or in this godforsaken city one second longer.