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Ramblings by Category

Ramblings by Year

roll with it, yo

You’ve come far, and though you’re far from the end
You don’t mind where you are, cause you know where you’ve been
Carbon Leaf

So, October is upon us. Anyone that has known me for a while will know how much I love October. (You might have guessed that based on my previous post as well, if you were clever enough to catch my hint.)

I am going to try and be a little more positive this coming month. I am tired of the despair I am in and I am tired of being kicked while I am down. The issue with the landlord has hopefully come to an end, albeit a sucky one. Despite his being complete illegal in everything he did, by our laws and whatnot he still gets away with it and we’re out of a place to live. If we were to open a file and sue him it would take at least 2 years to go to court and we’d be paying all the costs and the judge might not grant us enough to even cover what we paid. Let alone we’d still need somewhere to live for the next two years. I am totally bitter and pissed off that he can get away with this and nothing will happen to him, but what choice do we have. We came to an agreement and what little we got out of it is going into the savings acount and towards a downpayment on buying our own home.

Because that’s what our next step is. I am so finished with landlords and renting. I am so over being screwed by the landlord for their own selfish purposes. We can’t afford a house yet, so we’re looking at condos. And still, it’ll be another few months before we can even step into a bank and look into getting approved for a mortgage. I am not thrilled about the idea of staying here any longer and I am tired of the heat always being on. But whatever. Suck it up and deal, right? However many more months here is that many more months we can just save our money. So I will suffer in silence.

But you know what? Even though we’ve had a rough go of it the last couple of years, I have found one thing remains constant – how much love I have for Shawn. Each trial we struggle through, every battle we fight, we’ve been together. And the more time I spend with him the more I love him. I love doing everything with that guy, be it waiting in line to talk to someone at the rental board, or driving to meet the bad guy or just holding each other in support after the fire. No matter what the daunting task is before me as long as I am with Shawn it’s nowhere near as awful as it could be and through it all, I remain happy and sane.

Yeah, that’s a big pile o’ mush, but it’s true. There has been a lot of horrible stuff happening to us but even with our unluckyness we are extremely lucky. No one was ever hurt. No one got lost. We have each other, our dogs and our family. We are very lucky. Yes, we’re techinically homeless, but we’ll have a place to stay as long as we need one where we are.

I need to focus more on that than all that other crap. It’s hard. And I don’t want to get my hopes up that we’ll be approved for a mortgage and get a great home right away, because I am too used to having my hopes crushed in the blink of an eye. But we’ll see what happens and I’ll take it a day at a time.

So, welcome to my Halloween Blog, and welcome to October. And welcome to hope and seeing the glass as half full.

under construction

You know what happens tomorrow? Huh? Do you??? It’s OCTOBER!! And I LOOOOOVE October!!! And of course I can’t let you all down with not having a Halloween themed blog for October, right? I mean it’s been about 4 years now that I have done this… so I have to!

So I am working on it.. I don’t know if I’ll be able to get all the coding done before I have to leave, but I’ll have it finished by midnight tonight so it’ll be all ready for October 1st!! Woo!


I was going to try and post something, but I really don’t have anything to say. Everything is stupid and this is a super rotten year. Not really the happiest camper these days.

I did renew my learner’s permit today though. I can now go another year without trying to drive before I renew it again. Except I think next year I have to take the tests again in order to renew it. Don’t you just love my faith in actually learning to drive and taking the Big Test? Yeah. Doubt it’ll ever happen. But hey, it was only $23 to renew.

uh oh, she’s drinking coffee

Why does every inanimate object hate me today?? Really. And why can’t I sleep? [ok, well I know the answer to that one.. various reasons, but still… I WANT TO SLEEP!] And why do people have to be so stupid and moronic? I hate everyone [except you, my wonderful internet friends!] Why can’t I take vacation with my husband? Why do I even have to get out of bed in the morning??

oui, je parle francais

It’s a four day work week! Why? Well, I have Friday off to go down to Le Regie du logement and file a claim against my landlord. Woo and hoo! Shawn took the day off as well and we’re going in force with all our documents and getting all serious and shit. I’m homeless and pissed off. Don’t mess with me. I’m also majorly crampy and have been awake since 2:30 a.m., so I am starting the week off in full form, yo.

Other items of note from this past weekend… we took my grandparents out to brunch to celebrate my Poppop’s 94th birthday (September 19). We went to this little restaurant around the corner from their apartment that they eat at every day. I haven’t seen them in a long time, so it was nice to just be the 4 of us. [I guess Poppop is an East coast thing, Cindy, my father called HIS grandfather that.. they’re from Brooklyn, NY.]

nana poppop and me sept 23 2006

My grandfather never smiles in photos unless you force him… hee!

smile darn you!
Saturday night we went to see The Convenant. Yeah… don’t go see that. Wow. Bad. I only have one word sentences to describe our experience. Eek. Ugh. Wow. The story itself, actually could have had potential, but boy did they stay far away from that. Potential? We don’t need no stinkin’ potential, they said. Hell, they weren’t really too picky about people with any acting ability either. I don’t even think this one particular guy even SPOKE in the film. It could have been real fun witchy cheese (you know, like The Craft) but no. It was sad.

But on the fun side… Shawn and I spent yesterday late afternoon/night playing Lego Star Wars II on the XBOX 360. Wheeee! Fun! Shawn was a wookie and I was a princess and various other things too. Lego Star Wars characters are adorable and the little movies inbetween the playing are hilarious! We also watched the new Family Guy. I think it started last week, but we missed it…[so I was going to link you all to the Family Guy page, but it keeps telling me I don’t have Flash installed and I so totally do, yo! So I am just going to leave it unlinked and boycott the page. Take THAT, Family Guy!]
I know I need to post something non-pathetic and depressing. I’m just trying to find stuff that would interest anyone, let alone me! Right now there’s not much happy and fun going on. I am in love and I am loved. I guess that’s something, right?