I should have known better. I mean, if something is to go abnormally wrong it will happen to me. I had hemorrhaging problems after I had my tonsils out at 14. My appendix operation didn’t go well and it took me longer to heal than a normal person, with an infection in the middle there and now I have a 7 inch scar. My breast reduction also took longer to heal and I had a weird infection thing on one side.
So, why should I have thought that laser eye surgery would be any different? Maybe because I didn’t think of it as surgery. Or I was too distracted by the thought of the yummy Ativan? Not one single person I had spoken to said anything bad about the procedure and the aftermath. NOT A ONE. A handful of people let me know that for the first month I would find my eyes changing a lot, but nothing too bad. If at least one person told me they’d had a bad experience I would have thought the better of it.
But no one did.
Here I am 9 weeks later and I have just come back from an “emergency” appointment because for the last 5 days my left eye has been seeing nothing but double. I have horrible headaches because of this, I am dizzy and nauseous and I am walking into things. (Ok, so I walk into things on a regular basis, but now I have an EXCUSE!) I phoned the LasikMD people yesterday and they fit me in this morning.
The good news? My eyes are just horribly dry and there is nothing else wrong. The eye itself is healthy and flat and nothing with the eye, other than the dryness is wrong. So that fear has been quelled. I finally sucked it up and agreed to put the plug things in my eyes. They are supposed to help keep tears in my eyes and get rid of the dryness. They are used by people with really bad dry eyes. And I hope they work for ME. I know I am a slow healer, but come on. I would like to be able to SEE. Seeing is important on many levels. I can’t work very well when I can’t see. I can’t learn to drive – and I am JUST getting comfortable with driving and then my eye goes all wonky. I’m seriously starting to wonder if my body is trying to prevent me from learning to drive. Bad, body! When I am able to drive on my own I will be able to leave the house at 9PM and go get you that Oh Henry bar you are craving! Just think of the amount of cravings I will be able to satisfy when I can drive! And books! I can drive out to the bookstore on a whim! It’s really in the best interest for the both of us, body, if I get my driver’s licence. Think about it.
So, I have these silicone plug things in my tear ducts and they are supposed to help with the dry factor and I have to keep taking my many eye drops (which I never stopped, just in case you doubt that I have been taking care of my eyes all this time). They cost me $75, which I suppose isn’t all that bad. Except that even though today is payday, tomorrow is Vet Trip Day and we’ll have to plop down at least $400 for that bill as it is Heart Worm Season and Rabies Shots and whatnot. And I have two big dogs and they cost a lot. And Annie isn’t doing that great and I am worried that we’ll have extra costs if something is wrong. So. Yeah.
And after all of this? I STILL CAN’T VAPOURIZE PEOPLE WITH MY EYES! Not one laser shoots out from them when I give idiot people my Death Glare. I try so hard, too. Until the double vision thing started I figured my headaches were from how hard I was glaring at people trying to vanquish them.
Would I recommend laser eye surgery to others? Well, I don’t know. I’d say a big old NO to people who have dry eyes to begin with. Don’t listen to the doctors, it won’t “be fine”. Over 2 months later and I can’t see still. In fact I can see less than when I had glasses and took them off. I can’t see close, I can’t see far. It’s driving me bloody insane. Except I seem to be the ONLY person to have ever had any complaints. I have people look down at me (not just because I am short) and sniff “Well, I could see fine the next day, so I don’t see what your problem is”. And I’m like, really? REALLY? You’re judging me and my eye problems? Did you really just use that tone? Jeez.
I can’t see. Some days I can – out of one eye. I sometimes feel like I never should have done it and just stayed with the glasses. I liked my glasses on me, they were cute. So I don’t know what to do now.
Here’s hoping my plug thingies work.