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Ramblings by Year


I love this time of year. Halloween everything, yo!

I have no cubicle to decorate this year. No desk or office space to decorate. First time in years. I had planned to dig out all the Halloweeny stuff from the basement to overload the house with spooky-goodness, but I have been in bed for most of the past three days, dealing with vertigo/dizziness that has had me in tears.

I have missed work. Missed out on a gorgeous fall weekend. And nothing is decorated.

But I got my blog theme updated on time. And now I’m off to bed because I AM going to work tomorrow. My head is finally not spinning, though quick movements aren’t appreciated.

I have been gone from my old job for almost a year. The end of this month marks the year anniversary of my last day in that life. I miss the people I worked with so much. To the point that when I did finally get some sleep this morning, I had the worst nightmare about visiting my old admin floor and no-one wanting to talk to me. Or acknowledge me. There was so much going on the dream that I woke up sobbing. I had been replaced, with a girl named Kitty (which I only realized the significance of after I woke up). Everyone I used to work with was so cold, and distant to me. And sometimes mean. And I felt alone, and abandoned. So alone.

So, yeah, I miss my friends most of all. Not the job, but the people. Badly. And being sick, and spinning, and stressed out because of that, equals stress dreams about my old job. Used to be stress dreams were about high school and elementary school. Like everything else though, they are evolving.

I miss friends that were (are) family.

I miss getting to decorate my workspace.

But it’s October, and I’m going to decorate my home and hopefully see some friends soon. We have something planned for almost every Saturday this month. I am excited! I love October so much.

Bring on the Halloween WHIMSY! *tosses candy corn like confetti*


I love this month. Love it!

I’m a huge Halloween gal and I normally decorate everything in sight. Including my blog. But I seem to have lost the header I made for this blog last year and I will have to make another one that fits better.

I only discovered this as I was updating my blog for the season. Alas. I guess I have a weekend project now.

Of course all of the tweaking that I need to do to change the theme to full blown OCTOBER hasn’t been finished. Sadly, I have other things to do with my life (including sleep!) so I can’t get to it all in time for the switch over. Bah.

Either way – this blog is semi-updated! Yay, October and Halloweeny things! (Book blog will follow, eventually. I have THAT header at least!)

Are you going to dress up for Halloween? If so, what are you going to be? I love Halloween!

do not be alarmed

I’m going to be doing something new and different around here and I don’t want you all to freak out or panic or get offended, yadda, yadda. I blog about a lot of things and I’m pretty much an open book, but somethings I like to keep private. I don’t talk about a lot of really personal stuff believe it or not. And I’m going through a particular journey right now that I need to journal but I just don’t want the world to know about. So I am going to password protect a few posts.

I know, from many years of blogging, that people freak out when posts get password protected. So don’t do that.

Or, if you do, that’s your problem.

Why bother posting anything then, you might be wondering. Well because a) I need to chronicle things and I like to have everything in one place and b) I need some support from friends, because I know I need the support. Obviously this means some people will have the password. I am going to be picky about whom I let into this part of my life. Some are already a part of it and some of you will be given the choice.

This isn’t a big secret and it’s not nefarious, it’s just something I don’t feel like sharing with the World Wide Web, you know?

That being said, I haven’t actually thought of a password yet, so don’t freak out if I haven’t sent you anything. =P

I wouldn’t normally post a warning post like this, but I have a feeling there will be gasps and hurt feelings if I just suddenly posted a password protected post.

So don’t freak out, ok? Family and close friends aren’t being shut out. It’s the rest of the internet that will be. heh (and not for everything!!)

november starts off spiraling

At least in my head it does… the vertigo feeling started about 7:30 this morning. Made me feel very happy to already be on med leave. I am curious if this is the start of a whopper of a migraine (which tends to happen within 24 hours of any vertigo I get now) or just because my head is totally stuffed and I got up to take a benedryl at about 5am.

Either way, I do not like it. It has made for a very difficult and unpleasant de-halloweening of my blog. In fact, I seem to have accidentally saved over my regular book blog header image and now it’s too small! I don’t have the ability to edit that too much right now since I am spinning as I write this.

Ah, well.

Must work on the blog themes when I am feeling better. Time to change the title fonts and whatnot. Just not right now.

I can’t believe it’s November already! It’s still so bright, orange and October-y outside my window. I am sure the rain and gloom will show up soon enough. I shall celebrate today’s nice weather by opening my window a crack. Maybe the fresh air will help with the dizzy. @_o

it’s october! boo!

Why, yes! At some point when I wasn’t looking it changed from September to October. That boo! in the title, isn’t to express displeasure, rather it’s a ghosty type boo!

Earlier this week I thought about how I should probably change my blog theme and I went into my files to see what I did last year, only to discover that I was just as bummed out last year as this year (though, really, I think this year wins) and I didn’t even make a new Halloween theme for my blog! Gah! Thankfully, I have all this free time because of my sick leave (although, I wish I had the free time when I was HEALTHY, because that way I could DO things like clean the house, organize my books and clothes, etc. Alas.) and while I could sit for a while, I tried to whip up a new header. This proved to be challenging because all my original files were in Paint Shop Pro format and I couldn’t open them in Photoshop Elements. Bummer. I managed to get my old laptop Molly working long enough to figure out that I could export those images to photoshop ones and then transfer them to my macbook.

The result is above. I really like my little faerieCat graphic and I needed to include her in this header as normal. Even if my hair isn’t anything close to that colour anymore. (I wonder if I can fiddle with the colours in PSE?)

I also just discovered Google Fonts this weekend and OH MY GOSH! Where has this been all my life!? This is a sneaky way to make sure that the title fonts all look a like on different computers. This should look the same to everyone. I have tried it on my mac and on Shawn’s pc. Hopefully it’ll work.

Yeah, that’s it for me. Not an exciting post but I had to christen my favourite month with a blog post on the first day!

Sadly, this is about as festive as I am feeling at the moment. All my Halloween decorations will remain in boxes for now. I would have to clean so much of the house to have room to put them out and I just can’t. I can’t move without pain and I’m not about to exert myself just for decorations (sorry JammieJ!) Also, the little storage room under the stairs that houses all the decorations is currently behind a large washer and dryer from when we had ours replaced. The old ones are still in the basement, blocking off that room. No way I am moving all of that, or having Shawn do it since I don’t feel like decorating.

I wish we could just get a break from misery so I would be feeling more like myself and want to celebrate the month of October with my usual gusto. Sadly, that’s just not happening this year. I shall live through my festive blog theme for the meanwhile.