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    diary of a non-jogger: chasing away the fears and shadows in which our demons hide

    I took last week off from work. Since I was a bouncing ball of nerves and anxiety, and since the streets were clear, and the days were somewhat mild, I knew exactly what I needed – and wanted – to do. Run. I haven’t been out on a run in forever. If I look back at my blog, it was 2 years ago April. Sure, I’ve run a couple of times at the end of a personal training session, but nothing on my own. By myself. For me. And I am ready to get back into it. Something I learned in the past few years of trying to become a jogger? I miss running when I am NOT running. Who knew? Certainly not I, said the Cat. And it’s hard. And tough. And I am so crazy out of shape. I didn’t work out much at all in the last year because of health issues. My body needs to be retrained, but thankfully the muscle memory is strong and I am seeing results faster than I have before. My body just needed me to be back in the right state of mind. One of the days I went out was wet, slushy snow, damp, and COLD. And yet, I ran. I’d have run more that day if my pants had not been falling off each time I did a running portion. Mental note: Only run with the draw-string leggings from now on because your body is changing shape again and…

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    diary of a non-jogger – slow & steady

    2.20 km total; wonky gps. Grr. I have a four-day weekend and after being back at work full-time, I’m really looking forward to this weekend! I have been out running three times this week, I’m super proud of myself. I didn’t blog about the last run because I was tired. And I forgot. Plus, this blog seems to be just about running now and well, you’re probably all sick of that. ANYHOW… I had to force myself off the couch today so I could go run. I had grand plans for this long weekend. Plans that included running as often as I could. Not sure if I’ll be able to get 4 days in a row in, but I wanted to get out there more often so I can build up endurance. With each run I have done this week, I have gone a little farther than the last time. Sunday I achieved my first full kilometre and Monday I went a few feet farther. Today I went a lot farther than I had but the gps didn’t track it at all. Grr. I know what I did though and I know how fast I did it. In all I got 1.88 km of running in out of 2.20. I’m increasing at a snail’s pace, but I am happy with my results. I feel great during the runs and afterwards, so I know I’m improving. Right now I need to work on breathing because I’m stopping due to my lungs feeling…

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    diary of a non-jogger – new personal record

    Well, golly. I haven’t written on my blog in weeks! I only wrote one post in March! Oops. Obviously I’ve been going through some stuff, but I’ve also been swamped with my grammar course this semester. I just did my final exam in that course today and I’m both happy and sad that the course is over. I was mentally exhausted when I was done the exam (almost 2 hours long!) and I went up to take a nap but I couldn’t sleep. I kept thinking about how it was a lot nicer out today than it was supposed to be. It was supposed to pour rain all day and yet the sun had started to peek out from behind the clouds. It’s cool enough outside that a run wouldn’t have been uncomfortable. So, I got up, changed into my running clothes and went out. Now, I haven’t run since February 23rd and I have been quite ill for the past month and a half (possible bad reaction to medication, not sure. Seeing my doctor tomorrow.) I kept the same goal in mind I had last time though – run as much as I can in a shorter distance and work on building that up. Last time I was thrilled that I was able to run a full 7 minutes without stopping. I didn’t make a full kilometre in distance though, but because I had a shorter route, I was happy with what I was accomplishing. This time I got the…

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    diary of a non-jogger – first run of 2014

    1.35 km out of 1.92 km February always makes you feel like winter will never end. The warm(er), sunny days are few and far between, so when you find yourself gifted with a rare perfect, winter’s day, you need to take advantage of it! I will admit that I haven’t been taking advantage of the nice days as much as I should have. I haven’t been doing so great with the PTSD thing and I recently returned to work and that hasn’t gone well at all. I only worked three days last week and I ended up a huge mess.  I was supposed to go into work for 4 days this coming week, but I’ve worked it out so that I’m only going to be working 2 days. Even those two days are filling me with dread but I’m going to do the best I can. I was such a mess last week that I didn’t even go to my fitness class on Tuesday and Thursday evenings. I have been hiding in my house, sleeping through the days and trying to occupy my brain with anything and everything that wasn’t what I was supposed to think about. Even school work has been too overwhelming but I gave myself yesterday a free pass on my work and hunkered down today. The call of the sunshine was a little too loud this afternoon though, so I took a break half-way through my module (adjectives before lunch, adverbs after!) and laced up my…

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    diary of a non-jogger – spring in fall

    2.56km if you wanted to be all technical about it The weather was unseasonably warm and spring-like today. I had an outdoor crossfit class at 10am this morning and it was just gorgeous out as we worked out. The last few outdoor classes have been about 2 or 4 celsius and that’s cold! We were up around 10C today with nice, warm sun and I think that’s my most favourite kind of work out ever. It was so nice out I was itching to run. I haven’t been out since September 14 and, honestly? I have missed it. I have a whole bunch of other activity in my life right now but there’s something about this jogging thing that I’m still digging. I took Jinx with me and Shawn walked Sophie. I did a walk/warm-up around the block since I knew we’d pass the Sniffing Trees and trying to get Jinx by there without stopping would have been difficult and well, I’d feel bad. So we all walked as a family for the first little bit, less than a 5 minute warm-up if I were doing the Couch to 5K app program. Since I knew I hadn’t really been out running (the sprints and warm-ups in my crossfit don’t count) for a while, I had a stern talk with myself before I set out about how I was not to expect miracles and I was NOT to get DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF if I couldn’t run much. I was seriously surprised…

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    diary of a non-jogger – uuughh

    OMG!Mountain! Mo and I only got out one last week to fight that mountain. It was extremely painful for me this time around. Walking up the mountain gives me sharp pain in one place and I even resulted to lying down on a bench and trying to stretch it out. Didn’t work. It goes away as soon as I am on a downward slope though. I don’t know what it is. Something is pinching in a not good way. I don’t get this problem when I walk or run on flat land, so I know it’s all up-hill related. Up a STEEP hill. I tried running but that wasn’t quite in the cards for me, though I did make it down the entire snaked path without stopping. I thought I was going to throw up when I stopped though. Ugh. Mo is very. very patient with me and encouraging and yet I still feel guilty and awkward that I am so slow and pain-filled and that I have to stop so frequently. Alas. I will eventually get over it. Mo hasn’t dropped me yet, so there’s hope. 😉 c25k – week 3 day 2 With all the mountain climbing and other stuff going on, I haven’t  been out at home in a long time. So today I told myself I’d run no matter what. No sleep? Too bad. Raining? Too bad. Didn’t feel like it? TOO BAD. (The only reasons I would allow were: migraine/stomach flu or high heat &…

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    diary of a non-jogger – I’m sure there’s an inspirational quote about mountains that would work here

    Tuesday, September 3 – Day One of OMG!Mountain! So, if you don’t know anything about Montreal, here’s a tip. It’s built on a mountain. Mount Royal. Montréal. That’s French for Mount Royal. Now, I’m pretty lucky in that I don’t have to walk up any steep parts to get to work, but there are streets in this city that make me want to cry. (Whenever I had to visit Monkey in her last apartment in this city? Yeah. Painful. She moved to another Province and I find I get the urge to visit her more often just because THERE IS NO MOUNTAIN TO CLIMB. Bonus, I get to take a TRAIN!) This week one of my besties was back at work from her summer leave and she suggested that we go out running at lunch. Only she jumped on this running thing a lot quicker than I did when I started because she was home and would do it after dropping her kids off at school. I was (still am, sometimes) very uncertain about going out with her because I am slow. Very slow. And I don’t have a lot of endurance and I don’t like feeling stupid as I stagger behind and have to stop and catch my breath every 3 seconds. But I brought in my running stuff on the first day of work this week with the intention of going out on our lunch break. We weren’t sure what to do so I suggested a route. It…

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    diary of a non-jogger – experimental

    Tried to run a full kilometre and came short (0.76km) but kept going with walking and running. Managed to run just under 2km (by, like, 0.03 of a km, so let’s just round up ok?) out of the 5k. Concerned about my new shoes as I have major shin pain while running in them and I wasn’t having ANY leg/shin pain with the old shoes. Not sure if this will even out or if I made a bad shoe choice. First time I hit 5km out though. The last almost kilometre was spent with husband and dogs. Sophie stopped for two poop breaks so it sort of cut into my time. 😉 I was averaging 10m 30s a km though per runkeeper and my walk/run splits. I have iced my shins and I am off to soak in the tub for a half hour before I crawl into bed. First time I went out two consecutive days to run though. I wanted to run tonight. I needed to. My body said, “Let’s go!”. So I went. I regret nothing. Woot!

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    diary of a non-jogger: new shoes, new pains

    C25k – Week 3, Day 1 (this time with a WORKING app!) I have been feeling out of sorts all day. Kind of bloated and nauseous and I will admit the McD’s cheeseburgers I had at lunch were probably not the best idea (I do not need a McD’s lecture in the comments. I won’t listen and I don’t eat it often and normally when I do, I feel fine.) I think my body didn’t want both burgers but I’m so used to eating two that I just scarfed them down without thinking and I have been feeling way to full since then. Even now – it’s after 8pm and I am not hungry. I haven’t eaten since noon. I haven’t been sleeping either, which is adding to the out-of-sortsness and that’s been going on since we got back from Ontario. I think I am just over being in this province and stressed about having to stay here and go back to a job that doesn’t fulfill me anymore. Also… full moon. Me and the full moon just do not play nice together. Which is sad because I am really all about the moon. I love her. Why she doesn’t love me back, I’ll never know. It was nice out today. Nice enough that I knew I could go out for a run. I have these lovely new purple running shoes to break in, so why not? First thing first – apparently if you run with a working version of…

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    if the shoe fits

    One shoe, two shoe. Old shoe, new shoe. Well, I guess it’s official. I am going to keep on keeping on with this running business. Before I spent any money on running paraphernalia I wanted to make sure this wasn’t just something I was going to try and then abandon after a few half-hearted attempts. But I spent money today, so it’s like, a real thing. I am going to be a runner. And although I don’t go out nearly as often as I think I should. I have continued to lace-up and hit the pavement every month in hopes to progress a little bit farther than I had the last time I was out. I continue to consider all days that aren’t over 25C days that are, “good running days” and then become slightly mad at myself if I am not actually out there running. Or walk-running as I actually do. I have been out enough that my 2-year old Brooks are wearing through their soles. Granted they are two years old and I bought them while on strike so I’d have something comfortable to walk in a circle for 3 hours day in (let’s not talk about that anymore, shall we?). And in the last two years, there were a couple of actual half-hearted attempts at trying to jog in there, but I didn’t wear the shoes often enough to wear them down much. However since the last week of March? I can now feel rocks and other…

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    diary of a non-jogger – #runningisstupid

    c2k5 – week 3, day 1 – not quite successful Aside from learning that the Ease Into 5K app for android phones doesn’t work for crap (it didn’t save my run today at all. I apparently ran 0km in 0 minutes. LOVELY!) I am having one of those “I will never be able to do this” days. I tried to do the Week 3 run (and rather than change the SIM card from my current phone to my iPhone like I have been doing, I thought I’d try my android phone… nope. Not going to do that again) and I learned that I can’t do it. At least, I can’t run for 3 minutes TWICE. I had to stop at 2 minutes on the second 3 minute run. I was so frustrated. It wasn’t one of those “Let’s just push for that last minute” things. Nope. I had to push myself through that second minute and I knew I had to stop at the chime for the last one because I felt like I was going to pass out and/or throw up. So I walked that last minute, gasping for air like a fish out of water. I had one last run coming up – only 90 seconds and I was determined to get through it. I DID, but it was hard. Today’s program was this: Warm-up walk: 5 minutes Run: 3 minutes Walk: 2 minutes Run: 90 seconds Walk: 2 minutes (repeat run/walk once more) Cool-down walk: 5 minutes…

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    diary of a non-jogger – still determined to BE that unicorn

    C25K Week 2 Day 1 – third time’s a charm! The last month was a bad combination of extreme heat & humidity (45C/111F) and then a really bad illness (that I was certain was mono, but now that it’s almost gone 4 weeks later and Shawn started it last week, it was likely just a really, really, REALLY bad virus!) The last time I went out I needed Shawn to pick me up because of a major dizzy spell. This was while I was still sick, but thought I was getting better. Wrong! I could hardly keep my eyes open the last month so I was sleeping off the swollen glands, sore throat and massive neck pain. The cooler days I really wanted to get up and GO! GO! GO! but I knew my body was not strong enough and I was still fighting the illness. I played it safe and was happy when I woke up this morning and my first thought was “Oh! I will go running this morning!” I am not a morning run person. I’m not a morning person period. For some reason I woke up wanting to run. So I listened to my body. Got up (closer to 9am than I thought it was), came downstairs, had Shawn change my phones up so I could actually use my running app on the iPhone (long story, that one), updated my iphone and music and then drank some coffee while I waited for my phone to sync up (didn’t think…

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    diary of a non-jogger – july is not the best running month

      Hey, so I keep meaning to update this blog with more than just jogging posts but I never seem to find the motivation. I have a different post already started about other things, but each time I sit down with the intention of blogging I get restless and distracted.  I’m a day-time blogger, really, so if I can’t find time at work to update (and trust me, I can’t. Soooo busy.) I just don’t feel like sitting and writing when I get home after a long day. Alas. Even now, as I try and write this particular post about my run this morning, I’m all over the place. Not feeing it. BUT I am keeping track of this for my own reference and I want something to look back as I move forward. So, here I am. We’ve just come off a 2-week major heatwave that saw a few days with highs of 44C in a row with humidity. That’s 111F for those of you who don’t speak Canadian. I have never experienced anything other than humid heat so I don’t know what 44C would feel like WITHOUT humidity. I’m sure it’s still hot and I have been told that it’s a little more bearable than a humid heat. Who knows. What I do know is that I couldn’t go out at all while the humidity was so bad. I can’t breathe just walking in that weather, there was no way I was going to try and run. I…

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    diary of a non-jogger – achievement unlocked

    Week 2, Day 3 – success! Well, I did it. I did all three days of the week 2 program this week. Each one was successful! Today’s had me just 0.05 away from reaching 4km! Part of me is beside myself with joy that I was able to break all personal records so far and a little part of me was all, ARGH! I should have just walked up and down the driveway for 30 more seconds! 😉 Today was hot and I was so happy when my route took me through shade. It wasn’t overly humid though so breathing wasn’t a huge problem. I did splash water on my face and head a couple of times just to cool down a little. When I got home I felt fine, until about 10 minutes later I felt a little light headed as we were sitting down to eat dinner on the back deck. Easy fix! We had just taken the towels off the line so doused my head and neck under the hose for a minute and then wrapped my head in one of those clean towels. Problem with my pink hair is that it drips pink and I didn’t need that all over my clothes. 😉 The wet hair also made for a refreshing outdoor dining experience. (Steak and corn on the cob. Mmmmmm.) Tonight’s run/walk was a victory in my books. All those failed attempts at even completing the first day of this week has finally resulted in…

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    diary of a non-jogger – i couldn’t do this in april…or last month

    C25K Week 2 Day 2 I started my week-long vacation today. I had big plans to go out and run this morning, or at least get out after lunch. Unfortunatley it poured rain ALL DAY. The rain stopped when Shawn came home from work. Since we couldn’t decided what we wanted for supper, I went out to tackle the second day of the week 2 program. I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to finish it though, but I pushed through because I refused to NOT complete it since I’d already done it once. Take THAT, running program! It really felt like I was going so much slower than I was the other night, but per my stats I was faster AND covered (slightly) more distance. Huh. Go me? When I get the “you’ve reached the half-way mark” alert I am convinced that I will not be able to last another 18 minutes, but somehow they fly by and I am on my last walk before the last run and the 5 minute cool down. I find that somewhat unbelievable. I seem to pass over some sort of wall and the endurance gets a little bit easier. It’s such a strange and weird feeling to me. My foot only fell asleep on the last run this time (yay?) and I stopped for a bit on the cool down walk to take off my shoe and then put it back on. That helped. I don’t know how else to…