I have a ton of Christmas stuff to acquire and put up. Sure it’s only mid-November, but I like to have my home and hearth ready for the first of December. Our tree will be bought most likely the second week of December so it doesn’t dry out and die before Christmas is actually here, but I am still not happy with the way the room is laid out and where the tree will probably go. Everything seems off and wrong this year, I want to decorate but I don’t like the options in front of me for where things will go or what will be decorated.
Sure we have a home to fill up over the years, but I want our first Christmas in this place to be special and warm and not look like we’re welfare folk living off of scraps. I lost most than I thought in that fire, I have to purchase all new wrapping and bags (thank goodness for the dollar store) but I can’t replace the awesome place mats and table runner I bought in 2005 because no one makes anything like it anymore. Which sucks because I loved my little snowmen theme. And of course the awesome dishes I had that went with them are hard to match to anything that’s out this year (and more broke in the fire/insurance/moving a gazillion times process). And my table is now hidden in the kitchen since we don’t have a dining room table yet. Maybe I’ll talk to Shawn about possibly moving it to where the dining room would be for the holidays? I don’t know. I just don’t like the layout of the house right now. I don’t know why. Maybe I’ll like it better once we have furniture. I don’t know. Lately I don’t even think I like the house anymore and maybe we made the wrong decision.
Come to think of it, I really miss 2005. Weird.
So anyhow, I don’t know what to do about Christmas this year. We’re not made of money so I can’t just go out and buy everything that I want in terms of decorations and until we get some furniture (end tables, lamps, coffee table, dining room set, etc) there’s not really much I can do anyhow since I shouldn’t buy things to decorate them with if we don’t actually have the things I want to decorate, right?