pook house,  the anomaly that is me

faltering festiveness

I have a ton of Christmas stuff to acquire and put up. Sure it’s only mid-November, but I like to have my home and hearth ready for the first of December. Our tree will be bought most likely the second week of December so it doesn’t dry out and die before Christmas is actually here, but I am still not happy with the way the room is laid out and where the tree will probably go. Everything seems off and wrong this year, I want to decorate but I don’t like the options in front of me for where things will go or what will be decorated.

Sure we have a home to fill up over the years, but I want our first Christmas in this place to be special and warm and not look like we’re welfare folk living off of scraps. I lost most than I thought in that fire, I have to purchase all new wrapping and bags (thank goodness for the dollar store) but I can’t replace the awesome place mats and table runner I bought in 2005 because no one makes anything like it anymore. Which sucks because I loved my little snowmen theme. And of course the awesome dishes I had that went with them are hard to match to anything that’s out this year (and more broke in the fire/insurance/moving a gazillion times process). And my table is now hidden in the kitchen since we don’t have a dining room table yet. Maybe I’ll talk to Shawn about possibly moving it to where the dining room would be for the holidays? I don’t know. I just don’t like the layout of the house right now. I don’t know why. Maybe I’ll like it better once we have furniture. I don’t know. Lately I don’t even think I like the house anymore and maybe we made the wrong decision.

Oh, and let’s not forget how my awesome sparkly tree skirt was ruined that year as well when the dogs decided to poop all over it. Sigh.

Come to think of it, I really miss 2005. Weird.

So anyhow, I don’t know what to do about Christmas this year. We’re not made of money so I can’t just go out and buy everything that I want in terms of decorations and until we get some furniture (end tables, lamps, coffee table, dining room set, etc) there’s not really much I can do anyhow since I shouldn’t buy things to decorate them with if we don’t actually have the things I want to decorate, right?

Bah Humbug!

4 Comments

  • Mishka

    It is tough starting over but you’ll do great. You’ll make it your own all over again and look, this way, you can upgrade in some areas that you wouldn’t have done before because you already owned something that fit the bill…the holidays are hard. I am spending them alone this year and getting up the energy to decorate is quite hard but I don’t want to miss the season completely so I will do what I can and if I only decorate a bit, then that is how it will be, but at least I won’t be deleting it from my life this year just because I have to do it on my own.

  • foradifferentkindofgirl

    My mother called me last night to tell me her tree was up. Then she laughed maniacally. Granted, it’s a 3 foot tree, but still.

    I’m kind of in ‘holiday resistance mode’ so part of me really thinks we’ll get to it when we get to it, but it could be because our tree is so freakin’ huge that it overtakes the room it’s in.

  • Katherine

    Usually I get to feeling like you are when I don’t have a very good idea how some project I’m working on is going to turn out (at home or at work). Make the best of it and you’ll see, it will be nice. You’ll probably look back in another two years and be smiling about 2007.

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