a chrysler new yorker circa 1990-something (or 1990 exactly, i can never remember).
i’m little (5’1).
i am terrified to drive this thing. especially with my lack of being able to turn corners. i have been learning to drive on a little civic. i hate that car. but they teach me to drive, what can i do? it’s been one year and 2 days since i got my learner’s. it’s valid for another 6 months and then i have to renew it. i should have gone for my test already to try and get my real license, but i haven’t been driving. why? i am terrified of our car! i haven’t driven since the end of october when i had my last driving lesson. the instructor made me feel like shit, telling me i’ll never learn.. blah blah blah. and in his defence i had only driven our car once in the time i was learning and that was in july…
after that lesson? the snow came. if i couldn’t turn corners in dry streets, i was NOT about to start trying in ice and snow. so i let shawn drive me around all winter.
BUT… last night…. i drove home from the mall. well… we were out for dinner and had to stop for gas. the gas station is in the empty mall parking lot. i thought.. hmm… maybe if i drive around the parking lot for a little while while it’s empty i can get over my fear.
so i did. and then… i drove home.
and you know what?? i could TURN CORNERS. woot!
maybe i can do this. maybe i’ll be able to drive the car without a panic attack a couple more times. maybe i’ll actually be able to book my driving test and take it… and pass. i really need to. i want to. it’s just that car is so damn BIG!