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Rambling Reader: ARGH!

Ever since last October when I fell into this abyss of a reading rutt I have not really been able to get back into the reading groove. Sure, I read almost 20 books in the month of July, but pretty much my monthly book totals have been abysmal. I have had so many books come out that I have been dying to read, and yet, I just can’t get into any of them. It’s not because they aren’t good – pretty much all of them are! – it’s just that… I don’t know. I can’t focus? All I know is that it’s driving me insane.

I currently have a bunch of books in various stages of bookmarking. And I’ve got a varied genre of books in this pile. It’s a mix of Urban Fantasy and YA and it’s not the type of book that’s the problem, because I have no desire to read anything else – though I will admit that having that J.D. Robb book tossed into the mix last week was refreshing. But she’s one of my Comfort Food authors, so it’s rare that I would take forever to read one of her books.

And err… I just discovered as I was going through my archives to copy and paste photo URLS that one of the books I thought I hadn’t finished, I DID finish AND posted a review of! My brain is seriously failing me these days. 🙁

This doesn’t even touch the rest of the books I have that I haven’t even started yet! Awesome books, too! Like Melissa Marr’s Fragile Eternity – which I was so excited about I bought in hardcover!

And I keep buying books! It’s like I have to have a book I have been waiting for as soon as it hits the shelves… I think I am just desperate now to find a book that will hook me and keep my attention. Something! Anything! I have two books on order at my local store because I am desperate for them – but will I be able to hunker down and read them right away? I haven’t a clue.

This could all be because of stress over my health right now and stress at work and just the fatigue that is apparently a symptom of my mystery ailment, but I don’t know. I mean, it makes sense, but generally when I am this strung out and miserable about things I long to get lost in a book. Right now, I’m happy if I can read more than a chapter of a book at a time.

(I have been sticking with Karen Chance’s Curse the Dawn this week though. Been reading it when I can’t sleep at night because of pain. It’s making me laugh and that’s something I seriously need right now!)

Maybe I am just overwhelmed by the amount of book choice I do have? That could be it, too. Though I look at my TBR bookshelf and think “Nah. Nah. Nah. Hmm, maybe? Nah.” when I see my books – books that I lusted after and by authors that I love and want to read more of.

Whatever it is, it’s bloody frustrating.

Rambling Reader: Reading Rutt

I’m in a terrible, horrible, no-good, very awful place right now. I have a bunch of books on my kitchen table and dresser but I just can’t read any of them.

I am currently sort of reading Moon Called by Patricia Briggs. I’m maybe 30 or so pages into it. I stopped reading An Abundance of Katherines a while ago, not because I didn’t like it, but because I just couldn’t keep my mind on it as I was reading. I came home from my trip to Ottawa at the beginning of October to find a surprise in my mailbox – an ARC of Bite Me by Parker Blue from the wonderful people at Bell Bridge Books, but I just can’t settle down enough to read anything.

I’m not watching a ton of TV (just a couple of shows here and there, like Chuck on Monday, NCIS on Tuesday, maybe Bones on Wednesday and possibly CSI on Thursday…) but other than that? I am so listless and exhausted these days that I almost fall asleep at my desk at work, and try as hard as I can to stay awake during dinner.

I normally read before bed, but forget about that right now. After a page or two I am out like a light. However even on weekends, when I normally like to curl up on the couch with a cup of tea and a book, I just have no desire to read anything. I haven’t even been reading the newspaper that I get on the weekend, comics even!

This is also translating into blogging. Both this and my personal blog are suffering from a lack of time and energy to update. I fear I may lose my 5 or so readers (heh). I just don’t know how long this will last or what to do about it.

I know everyone gets into a reading rutt once in a while, so it’s normal. And I have absolutely no fear that it will remain this way forever. I just don’t know how to shake myself out of it. The past two months I have acquired a TBR pile that has a backlog and THAT is a brand spankin’ new thing for me. I generally devour books the second I bring them through the door. Point in fact, that image at the top of this post – well I read all those books in about 10 days! That wasn’t even enough for me!

Now? Now I have about 7 or 8 books hanging around various places in my house and none of them are calling to me. At least if they are, I am deaf to them.

I positively hate this feeling. How about you?