• year in review

    the year that lasted decades

    Ok. *deep breaths* Ok. We all have feelings about 2020. Some of us have Very Strong Feelings. I am one of those someones. And I have written and rewritten this post in my head for the last couple of weeks and I couldn’t come up with a way to not make it depressing as all get out. I still can’t. I am in a horrible head space and I am exhausted by it. But I…

  • copyright cjh beyondelsewhere 2019
    the anomaly that is me,  year in review

    the year – no – the decade that defeated me

    I’m so tired. I am tired of scary health issues, injuries, sadness, bad luck. I am tired of treading water over and over every day, fighting to keep my head above that water. The water never stops pouring in. And yeah, this sounds overdramatic and tragic. But I have to tell you, it’s all I can feel. The years in this decade have just piled on more, and more crap. This last year wasn’t much…

  • memories,  year in review

    the year that fell apart

    I can count on one hand the things that went according to plan this year. Not that I had grand plans or anything, but if something could go wrong this year, it did. At full volume. Three and a half months ago, my father passed away. I wish I could say that was the worst thing in the entire year, but it wasn’t. By mid-September I was so emotionally drained that when my father passed…