mood

Hey there, internet. I've been having one of those years where I have so much to say but don't have enough words to fully express the swirling emotions and thoughts inside of me. So I have opted for silence on this here (poor, neglected) blog. And on a lot of social media. I know I am not the only one struggling heavily with the weight of this year, and I know I am not the only one completely exhausted by everything going on.

I have toyed with the idea of perhaps letting go of this little space on the web, but I can't quite make that leap just yet. I still feel like I have so much I want to write about. Lately everything seems to be gloom and doom, so I don't want to fill my blog with negativity. And when everything is gloomy the little trivial things seem, well, trivial. So I don't particularly feel like writing about the ONE amusing anecdote that I have.

I don't regret moving to Kingston one bit but I do wish things had gone a little better than they have. I am thankful that we have our health, and each other. I am thankful that we are safe, and have a roof over our heads. And if our ultimate goals of buying our forever home have to be put on the back burner for a little longer, well, I can survive that. Even though I totally reserve the right to feel mildly bitter about the entire thing.

There is so much about this new city that I love. I can't wait to explore its full potential once things are safe again. Meanwhile I am simply going to sit back and enjoy watching Abigail squish into this completely frivolous cat bed purchase I made while Christmas shopping for others. Because it makes my heart extremely happy. And I'll take my happiness however I can get it these days!